waiting....

So i am sitting here popping grape tomatoes in my mouth.. yum yum! It's interesting, it's been a month. And I'm not sure that I have any clearer of an answer about my future than i did a month ago. I still have no idea if financial aid is going to pull through. My desire to leave ames hasn't come. All I really know is I am signed up to take classes that would transfer to Indiana and they'd be a waste of my time at ISU. Which STINKS! I have been thinking... which sometimes isn't so hot about my God. I have been living for the past couple months under a King that says go here... now go there... now go here. Only viewing that end of my God, somehow I have managed to leave out the fact that my God is a loving God that wants me to delight in Him, and wants to give me the desires of my heart. I don't ever have trouble wrapping my head around the judging God side, but when it comes to my desires and passions.... well I need to stiff them so that I can be more effective for the Kingdom... well, maybe effective for the Kingdom in my heart is living in the dorms, doing too many activities... with TOO many people. Loving everyone I'm around and loving the fact that I am loving it. That sounds like me, that sounds like what I would do, even if it meant NO A/C. Yikes! But I don't like to let my head move too far in that direction because part of me still feels like God wants me in Indiana, but it bugs me because I have NO idea why. I can fit all of the dorm stuff into Indiana like I am required to live in the dorms in Indiana. My uncle posed a good point... He said that God generally in the Bible brings the body together, or sends out in groups or at least more than one. He thought it was odd that God would want me to go to Indiana by myself. He also mentioned Proverbs 4:25- 27 reading, "Let your eyes look straight ahead of you, fix your gave directly before you. Make level paths for your feet, and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the left or to the right; keep your foor from evil." So beyond the classes for the summer, I am still waiting to receive the gift God will give me with the info for financial aid from Indiana. It'll be a gift of staying at ISU or a gift of money to go to IWU.
I'm unsure about my future........ thats the end.