Nightmares..... lessons?

So last night I had a nightmare... it goes a little like this.. my mom was in a car accident and the baby with her was killed just because my mom died like the guy who came to the scene shot the baby in the head because he didn't want the kid to have to grow up without it's mother. Then I woke up.. like a little shaken, that's speaking very mildly. I woke up a friend and talked it out a little and went back to bed. Right back into it, now I'm talking to different relatives about the death. Going to funerals, talking it out with my best friend. Turn around she's been being very helpful, but with the thought process of the chance of death. She makes a video about the possibility of death. Don't ask me why. Well, she dies before she even mentions it to me. Now I am like seriously in a tizzy. I talk to my dad, and he offers to take me to the funerals along with a women that is being helpful. I finally get to start to see this movie that my friend made and I wake up in the middle of it.
First thought- Someone is praying that I would see relationships as gifts.
I'm not 100% sure that is true, but it is quite possible. I'm going to hope and pray it is prophetic in like the literal or figuritive sense, but yeah last night was interesting.

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Back in Ames

I got back to Ames safely. Life is going alright. I knew it would be somewhat stressful figuring out how to see everybody. It's always interesting. I got to have a party last week with some friends and the host made LASANGA one of my favorites!!! It was awesome. Solid hangout time. Seen a great deal of the grandparents and gotten to hang out with my best friend. Life is good. I haven't slowed down yet. This is the first go at slowing down, so I get to read my Bible and pray which is going to be really good. I also get to pray with a girl at 2 which sounds pretty tight. I haven't gotten to pray with somebody for awhile.
This last semester was a gift from God. Classes were a blast (for the most part), friends were great (even the ones in ames or elsewhere), finding a church was interesting... still a process I am in. God works in funny ways which is a common thought when he does something weird, but it happened a lot this semster. Like early in the semester, God was like you need to pray over a housemate.. kellie wasnt sure about that.. but I obeyed, got a little discouraged as to what I thought was unanswered prayer to later find out that God did answer and it was good. I am in the midst of learning about money and self control. It's hard, I love buying things for people, but sometimes it goes to the extent of like buying friends.. like that isnt the intent, but when someone gets mad or something I make it up to them with an object.. not so hot, but God is working on that area of my life.
My wisdom teeth need to come out. I have a consoltation tomorrow, but there are no openings before i go back to school. So that's just real interesting.
I had a moment a couple days ago of wanting a dog again which is a problem.. because I don't really like animals so much, but i always think if it were my dog and i knew what i fed it and how much i bathed it and stuff. Then I would like it more and actually want to pet it and such. We'll see if I ever get a dog. Shih-tzu would be the dog currently. My parents had one when I was born.
Life's moving and it will continue to.. so we'll wait and see what happens. Oh, and I am starting a social work blog if you have any interest in reading it. I'll post the address later... I have to make it first.

Hey, so I am officially the Social Work Club President! Woo Hoo!!

Question of the day: What does it mean to cast lots? At the end of Acts 1 when it talks about choosing Matthias to take Judas's spot, they cast lots to see who should be in it. What does that mean???

Friendship

I had an epiphany this past break. It consisted of finding out that I really don't need anyone but God. I traveled a lot over break. Enjoyed my time with Katie, my mom's family (Amy included :P), and my dad's family. But each step was an enjoyment. I miss people frequently, but this weekend I realized that I don't really need anyone but God. In each situation, I need to pray. I need to be in communion with God. I can get by not communing, but life just gets more and more something.... till I turn back. God's growing me. It's tight.
Friendships are looking different. I spent time in high school figuring out how to stay connected with several friends.. well, I still know them, enjoy time with them, but its a rare occasion. My friends from Iowa State are still close. I don't see them everyday like before, but I talk to a lot of them. Friendships are great, but God is the one that remains.
I really love to get to know people and for them to get to know me. I'd ask that the people reading would pray for me. I have a friend who I would love to have open up with me, but as time passes I'm not sure that it will happen. Would you pray that God would open a door for me to share life mutually with this friend. It's hard for me to be patient, I like to pry, but for some reason I haven't been doing that. Praise the Lord!!!! Pray for me in this situation that I would be loving no matter what even if God never opens the door up. I mean I don't see that being a problem. I love this girl a lot, but pray is always good. :)