Saturday, October 17, 2009
Long time...
Shoot.. summer sped by... I am full swing into Fall semester... like halfway done with it! So I should totally update everyone on my life. I'll do that tonight... Right now I have to go eat and go to work. WOO HOO!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Life
So its summer....
This summer I am working, cleaning up an apartment, and raising two dogs, Elsie Mae and Toby Mac. I once dreamt of becoming a stay at home mom. Now that I have spent the last week playing a similar role, I can say that I am SO glad I am going to be a Social Worker. It's been interesting.. my bro got a girlfriend, my dad is getting engaged, I think. My gparents are coming out next weekend. I've really been spending my time revamping an apartment.. like painting walls, cleaning floors, cleaning stairs... making bathrooms look like new or close to, and turning a kitchen into something I would want to cook in. Being the dreamer I am, I thought I would have all of that done in like two days... let me tell you it took much longer and really wore me out everyday.
I am continuing my job as a Res Tech this summer, which I highly enjoy. I am also working with YWCA co-leading the group Mentor Mothers and I get to do some fund development. I think this is going to be a very growing experience, you know one of those things that is really rough, but good to have the skill set in the end. I get to be in one wedding at the end of the summer :) and I think my dad might be getting married this summer too. My roommate that I am living above like she owns the house and I am renting the upstairs is getting married in just a few days :) I am going to be going to weddings this summer whew! If anyone was wondering, I am staying Marion for the long haul. I'll be spending a few weeks back home- May 28-June 9 and then August 16-31.
I'm in the middle of pondering some different subjects.. so I'll write on them later, but some tight quotes I've read recently:
-"It would take me many more years before I began to understand that we would others out of our own wounding"
-"So often when we are hurting we run from one thing to the next, frantically looking for a quick fix that will ease our searing pain and restore things to the way they are to be. However, God is not seeking restoration, but transformation"
Both of those are from the book, The Hidden Life, by Kitty Crenshaw and Catherine Snapp
Those aren't related to anything specific right now, but they were fresh to read.
I am in a transitional period right now. I didn't go home for the summer, so I am living like an adult.. except not quite 40 hours a week yet. Hopefully I will get that at least a few weeks this summer. It's hard to transition and find purpose in things that are brand new. I am being forced to just live. If you know me well, you know that I do not enjoy that, but I am learning. I love how Betty the person the biography is about longed for a serene, close relationship with God. As I read this book, I am praying for the same. I want to think that I am way behind and should have learned this stuff already, but in reality.. God's got me right where he wants me. I am blessed in Marion, Indiana. The house I am looking at buying is in stand still. I'm not sure what is going to happen.
Transitioning will continue... untill I have internet I won't be on here as much. :P Peace.
This summer I am working, cleaning up an apartment, and raising two dogs, Elsie Mae and Toby Mac. I once dreamt of becoming a stay at home mom. Now that I have spent the last week playing a similar role, I can say that I am SO glad I am going to be a Social Worker. It's been interesting.. my bro got a girlfriend, my dad is getting engaged, I think. My gparents are coming out next weekend. I've really been spending my time revamping an apartment.. like painting walls, cleaning floors, cleaning stairs... making bathrooms look like new or close to, and turning a kitchen into something I would want to cook in. Being the dreamer I am, I thought I would have all of that done in like two days... let me tell you it took much longer and really wore me out everyday.
I am continuing my job as a Res Tech this summer, which I highly enjoy. I am also working with YWCA co-leading the group Mentor Mothers and I get to do some fund development. I think this is going to be a very growing experience, you know one of those things that is really rough, but good to have the skill set in the end. I get to be in one wedding at the end of the summer :) and I think my dad might be getting married this summer too. My roommate that I am living above like she owns the house and I am renting the upstairs is getting married in just a few days :) I am going to be going to weddings this summer whew! If anyone was wondering, I am staying Marion for the long haul. I'll be spending a few weeks back home- May 28-June 9 and then August 16-31.
I'm in the middle of pondering some different subjects.. so I'll write on them later, but some tight quotes I've read recently:
-"It would take me many more years before I began to understand that we would others out of our own wounding"
-"So often when we are hurting we run from one thing to the next, frantically looking for a quick fix that will ease our searing pain and restore things to the way they are to be. However, God is not seeking restoration, but transformation"
Both of those are from the book, The Hidden Life, by Kitty Crenshaw and Catherine Snapp
Those aren't related to anything specific right now, but they were fresh to read.
I am in a transitional period right now. I didn't go home for the summer, so I am living like an adult.. except not quite 40 hours a week yet. Hopefully I will get that at least a few weeks this summer. It's hard to transition and find purpose in things that are brand new. I am being forced to just live. If you know me well, you know that I do not enjoy that, but I am learning. I love how Betty the person the biography is about longed for a serene, close relationship with God. As I read this book, I am praying for the same. I want to think that I am way behind and should have learned this stuff already, but in reality.. God's got me right where he wants me. I am blessed in Marion, Indiana. The house I am looking at buying is in stand still. I'm not sure what is going to happen.
Transitioning will continue... untill I have internet I won't be on here as much. :P Peace.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Mission Statement
So, I am in a class called World Changers right now and I had to write a personal mission statement. I get pretty pumped about stuff like this, so I thought I would share it with people that like knowing a bit about me. For most, this won't be anything special. It's me, I think I probably talk to much... :P Hope you enjoy.
My personal mission is to live for the sole glory of God, my Father. I will disciple His children by His book. I will be willing to go to the ends of the Earth with His gospel. I will choose to be on His team with my brothers and sisters. I will grow more today than I did yesterday. I believe that I have to set goals in order to see things happen. I believe in the next stage of my life that my mission is to reach out to teenage girls that are pregnant in Marion, Indiana.
I am called to pursue this mission because I value the words of Scripture that direct me. I believe that I am to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit, meditating on what I should do with my future, giving it completely over to God (Belief). I also value the giftings that God has given me: the gift of healing, the gift of seeing individual qualities in people (Individualization), the gift of seeing potential and wanting to revitalize that in others (Restorer and Developer), and the gift of being a leader that wants to make things happen (Activator). I value seeing broken things made more whole.
To fulfill this personal mission statement, I will pursue a four-year degree in Social Work. I will stay in the Grant county area for at least ten years. I will purchase a house, so that I can build community with the people in Marion. I plan to ask the mayor of this city to allow me to set up one of the closed down elementary schools as a center for teens that are pregnant. In the more current future, I plan to volunteer in many different avenues like getting involved with CASA, meeting with a juvenile girl in prison weekly, and co-leading the Mentor Mother Program at the YWCA. I plan to do this so that I can grow my knowledge of Social Work and diversity.
A passage that speaks to me in regard to my personal mission is Acts 20: 18-36. This is a clear declaration from Paul that he has submitted his whole life to God. He has done everything he can for the people in his presence at that time in order to equip them to believe truth instead of lies. He has done a great work there, but even as he leaves the last thing that he does is kneels down and prays. I love this passage and want to display a life similar to this. I want to empower people to do the most they can, but always depend wholeheartedly on prayer knowing that nothing is possible without God, but all things are possible with God.
My personal mission is to live for the sole glory of God, my Father. I will disciple His children by His book. I will be willing to go to the ends of the Earth with His gospel. I will choose to be on His team with my brothers and sisters. I will grow more today than I did yesterday. I believe that I have to set goals in order to see things happen. I believe in the next stage of my life that my mission is to reach out to teenage girls that are pregnant in Marion, Indiana.
I am called to pursue this mission because I value the words of Scripture that direct me. I believe that I am to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit, meditating on what I should do with my future, giving it completely over to God (Belief). I also value the giftings that God has given me: the gift of healing, the gift of seeing individual qualities in people (Individualization), the gift of seeing potential and wanting to revitalize that in others (Restorer and Developer), and the gift of being a leader that wants to make things happen (Activator). I value seeing broken things made more whole.
To fulfill this personal mission statement, I will pursue a four-year degree in Social Work. I will stay in the Grant county area for at least ten years. I will purchase a house, so that I can build community with the people in Marion. I plan to ask the mayor of this city to allow me to set up one of the closed down elementary schools as a center for teens that are pregnant. In the more current future, I plan to volunteer in many different avenues like getting involved with CASA, meeting with a juvenile girl in prison weekly, and co-leading the Mentor Mother Program at the YWCA. I plan to do this so that I can grow my knowledge of Social Work and diversity.
A passage that speaks to me in regard to my personal mission is Acts 20: 18-36. This is a clear declaration from Paul that he has submitted his whole life to God. He has done everything he can for the people in his presence at that time in order to equip them to believe truth instead of lies. He has done a great work there, but even as he leaves the last thing that he does is kneels down and prays. I love this passage and want to display a life similar to this. I want to empower people to do the most they can, but always depend wholeheartedly on prayer knowing that nothing is possible without God, but all things are possible with God.
Friday, April 3, 2009
This morning
Gay marriage was passed today in Iowa... yikes!
What do people think?
What do people think?
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Tis Life
So in Abnormal Psych there was this guest lecture, I missed it, but was given a briefing the next day. It was talking about a predisposition to violence, homosexuality, and addictions. We discussed whether there would be benefits from like changing the genetics of a person, so that they don't have to struggle with that. I thought about it for a bit, and decided that if that opportunity was available. I would be game. I think there would be lots of struggling Christians that would be game. I haven't struggled with attraction to a girl in a long time. Praise Jesus. But I do struggle with things like walking through stores, wondering what people think of me, wanting to be different, and so on. Like today, I thought about this while walking through the gap. I looked through the woman's department and didn't really see anything (this is abnormal), but my gma convinced me to try on a pair of jeans. I did, they were too long haha, go figure. Then when we were walking out, I saw this amazing shirt. It was so awesome, I said something to my gma without thinking. "I really like this shirt!" "It's in the MEN'S deparment." Well, I feel like an idiot.
I like my haircut, but I keep getting nervous around my gpa, because I think that he might call my haircut a dyke cut. That would really hurt my feelings. I don't really know how to struggle through this stuff because where is the line between being me and conforming to culture. Or what really is me, like do I have some underlying issues that cause me to want to dress and act the way I do? I believe there is probably some purpose in me not fitting in. I mean what I want to do with my life is work with people who don't fit in. Whether it be mentally ill people, teen's that are pregnant, or even homosexuals. All sets don't fit in. I don't fit in. Why can't I accept that and just be me. I have too many classes right now that are talking about homosexuality, addictions, impulse control, and other things that I can relate to my life. Even though I wouldn't diagnosis myself with any of them, I have parts of them.
I get to go to a group home for pregnany teens on Tuesday morning. I am excited for that. And writing an editorial on Family Problems this week should be fun. And I am forcing myself to learn about the disorder anorexia nervosa for my abnormal psych course, so that I am more sensitive to it. I praise God for the opportunities and experiences I am getting in Indiana.
PS.. I still want a dog. I wish May would get here quick!
I like my haircut, but I keep getting nervous around my gpa, because I think that he might call my haircut a dyke cut. That would really hurt my feelings. I don't really know how to struggle through this stuff because where is the line between being me and conforming to culture. Or what really is me, like do I have some underlying issues that cause me to want to dress and act the way I do? I believe there is probably some purpose in me not fitting in. I mean what I want to do with my life is work with people who don't fit in. Whether it be mentally ill people, teen's that are pregnant, or even homosexuals. All sets don't fit in. I don't fit in. Why can't I accept that and just be me. I have too many classes right now that are talking about homosexuality, addictions, impulse control, and other things that I can relate to my life. Even though I wouldn't diagnosis myself with any of them, I have parts of them.
I get to go to a group home for pregnany teens on Tuesday morning. I am excited for that. And writing an editorial on Family Problems this week should be fun. And I am forcing myself to learn about the disorder anorexia nervosa for my abnormal psych course, so that I am more sensitive to it. I praise God for the opportunities and experiences I am getting in Indiana.
PS.. I still want a dog. I wish May would get here quick!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Cool Sculpture!
http://www.chronicle-tribune.com/articles/2009/02/03/news/doc4987b8e5edef0861313829.txt
Monday, February 2, 2009
My 25 things.... :P
1.) I don't like to shave very much, so I get really hairy legs. (but it makes the after shave legs seem even better haha)
2.) I vowed not to work with teenagers several years ago... and continually since then when I am around them, but God is calling me to work with Teen Pregnancy.. go figure.
3.)I have Temporal Lobe Epilespy. Gran mal seizure November 2000.
4.) I like to count.
5.) I enjoy cleaning bathrooms. (They are usually the messiest, so they have the most improvement. I'm all about improvement in every area)
6.) I bite my nails, hardcore habit.
7.) My blood sugars tank sometimes, and i shake like a monkey.
8.) I desire to be a good role model for my younger sister. (I love her a lot.)
9.) I tend to really want to talk to a lot of my friends, but fail to make the time to do so....
10.) I like to wrestle.
11.) I can't wait to get married and a.) lay on my hubby's belly and b.)wear his t-shirts to bed. :)
12.) 12 is my favorite number and it reminds me of when I use to play catcher.
13.) I am a visionary person, i like to dream BIG. Pray BIG!
14.) I am very detail oriented.
15.) I have to repent of being selfish almost every day. :P
16.) I love worshiping through music for long periods of time: analyzing the songs, praising Jesus, and usually I have a lot of visions during that time.
17.) My favorite drink is Diet Mt. Dew followed closely by UNSWEETENED ice tea.
18.) I am a gift giver... I love to think of things to give people--- by gifts or by words.
19.) I am cuddler too... I LOVE IT!
20.) I get random desires to have things happen to me like having a bird poop on my head.
21.) I once peed my pants in a friend's family's snowsuit and didn't tell. Oops. :-/
22.) I take the Bible literally and enjoy my personal relationship with Jesus... conversing with the Holy Spirit.
23.) I have an instinct that God is going to have me adopt instead of have my own children... I'm not ok with that yet.
24.) I planned on going to school for an MRS degree, but met a particular someone who enjoys helping Jesus mess up plans... I am currently contently single.
25.) I have always loved the underdog, believed in the underdog, and desired to be friends with the underdog. I am going to spend the rest of my life working with underdogs and empowering them beyond the potential they believe is possible. I just need to learn were I end and God begins. :)
2.) I vowed not to work with teenagers several years ago... and continually since then when I am around them, but God is calling me to work with Teen Pregnancy.. go figure.
3.)I have Temporal Lobe Epilespy. Gran mal seizure November 2000.
4.) I like to count.
5.) I enjoy cleaning bathrooms. (They are usually the messiest, so they have the most improvement. I'm all about improvement in every area)
6.) I bite my nails, hardcore habit.
7.) My blood sugars tank sometimes, and i shake like a monkey.
8.) I desire to be a good role model for my younger sister. (I love her a lot.)
9.) I tend to really want to talk to a lot of my friends, but fail to make the time to do so....
10.) I like to wrestle.
11.) I can't wait to get married and a.) lay on my hubby's belly and b.)wear his t-shirts to bed. :)
12.) 12 is my favorite number and it reminds me of when I use to play catcher.
13.) I am a visionary person, i like to dream BIG. Pray BIG!
14.) I am very detail oriented.
15.) I have to repent of being selfish almost every day. :P
16.) I love worshiping through music for long periods of time: analyzing the songs, praising Jesus, and usually I have a lot of visions during that time.
17.) My favorite drink is Diet Mt. Dew followed closely by UNSWEETENED ice tea.
18.) I am a gift giver... I love to think of things to give people--- by gifts or by words.
19.) I am cuddler too... I LOVE IT!
20.) I get random desires to have things happen to me like having a bird poop on my head.
21.) I once peed my pants in a friend's family's snowsuit and didn't tell. Oops. :-/
22.) I take the Bible literally and enjoy my personal relationship with Jesus... conversing with the Holy Spirit.
23.) I have an instinct that God is going to have me adopt instead of have my own children... I'm not ok with that yet.
24.) I planned on going to school for an MRS degree, but met a particular someone who enjoys helping Jesus mess up plans... I am currently contently single.
25.) I have always loved the underdog, believed in the underdog, and desired to be friends with the underdog. I am going to spend the rest of my life working with underdogs and empowering them beyond the potential they believe is possible. I just need to learn were I end and God begins. :)
Life Catch Up
Whew. It's been awhile. Couple weeks. How much can life change? Hmmm.....
I'm walking into a dream starting tomorrow. I have yet to have any experience with Teen Pregnancy, but I have also committed at least the next ten years to this issue that is so prevalent in the community I am living in and across America. I start volunteering with YWCA tomorrow. I start learning how to empower women in a healthy way. I start my first step in a dream that seems impossible. I think about doing a turn about face from the end result I desire, but it's so far away I have trouble seeing it. A week from tomorrow I go to a group home to check out how that works with Teen Pregnancy. God has given me the gift of working in a group home, so that I know how to run one. Wow. I never saw that coming... thought it was a good experience... never dreamed I'd need it for God's will in my life. Pray for me as I embark on what I believe God has called the next years of my life to do. Also pray for God to give me a team of girls to embark on this journey with me. There are skills I don't possess, I really need the Body of Christ to team up with me.
I've also been thinking a lot about identity vs role diffusion. I think that is the Erikson stage I am in. I am learning about what I believe and realizing that I can believe whatever I want. My dad can help direct me, but I am on my own to discover and choose things. I am growing up. It's interesting to think of hard questions.. one that comes to mind is Did God create the world in 7 24 hour days? I've never thought or cared about that before. I care more about relational questions.
I thought I would throw out there, life is becoming manageable. Thanks for your prayers. They were answered! And today, I was challenged to again surrender my life and goals and everything to God through prayer this morning. I also desire to read my Bible more. I am in awe of the truth and revelation in the Bible. God is good!
I wonder sometimes how beneficial it is to ponder my past. Like is it worth walking back through. Sometimes there are great benefits. Like the other day, I vividly remembered my grandparents house on Franklin in Ames. I remember the comfort I found in being around my grandparents. I felt a sense of the love from my grandma through things like her itching my back, cooking pizza with me, walking over to the park, among other things. I just had a firm security there. Jumping on the trampoline, going to the track behind the house, riding in my barbie car, i think we even had a garden at some point, I felt loved by the room i had, i remember many bathes in the tub gram doing my hair under the faucet, being scared of the boogie man downstairs, watching tv next to my grandpa.. knowing he would always take care of me, toby, spending the night sleeping between gram and grandpa, helping gram do things like making the bed, the cracks in the driveway, riding my tricycle that had a dump box, the swingset, the big tree, playing hide and seek, but primarily.. I remember being SAFE there.. i was still insecure and scared, but more secure than anywhere else. Man, God blessed me with my grandparents. I think they might get to come out this weekend and I am super pumped. I miss them alot brings tears thinking about it. What a huge blessing. A gift.
I hope as I work through more bitterness that I will be able to recall memories like this of my mom and dad. The blessings they gave me growing up. It hurts sometimes to think about how much I wanted to grow up and be like my mom. I love her. I loved doing laundry with her, seeing her take such good care of our house. And dear old dad, I be just like him. I got to talk to him this morning, it always brightens my day. He has come so far over the years. To think, today the first person I want to ask advice from is MY DAD. I love him. He rocks my face off. He is growing so much. I hope to marry a guy like him someday. He helps run a business, he leads, he comes out of his past and plows through walls. He's walked out of a divorce and today holds his head high. Oh I love him.
Maybe I have found some worth in thinking about my past.
Another thing, I am the President.. i repeat PRESIDENT of a club. That means I am in charge.. I haven't realized that yet. Pray that I would take iniative in leading the club.
The final thing I have been pondering is friendships... I like have been visualizing a pieces of a puzzles. the different friendships are different puzzle pieces. I love my friends. I love that they're there when i need them. I don't like learning to trust people, but God is doing a work here in Marion with me trusting. It's a beautiful thing. I have some tight friends here, and hopefully I will be meeting some people to team up with me in my mission. :)
Life is good. God is good. I am blessed. The End.
I'm walking into a dream starting tomorrow. I have yet to have any experience with Teen Pregnancy, but I have also committed at least the next ten years to this issue that is so prevalent in the community I am living in and across America. I start volunteering with YWCA tomorrow. I start learning how to empower women in a healthy way. I start my first step in a dream that seems impossible. I think about doing a turn about face from the end result I desire, but it's so far away I have trouble seeing it. A week from tomorrow I go to a group home to check out how that works with Teen Pregnancy. God has given me the gift of working in a group home, so that I know how to run one. Wow. I never saw that coming... thought it was a good experience... never dreamed I'd need it for God's will in my life. Pray for me as I embark on what I believe God has called the next years of my life to do. Also pray for God to give me a team of girls to embark on this journey with me. There are skills I don't possess, I really need the Body of Christ to team up with me.
I've also been thinking a lot about identity vs role diffusion. I think that is the Erikson stage I am in. I am learning about what I believe and realizing that I can believe whatever I want. My dad can help direct me, but I am on my own to discover and choose things. I am growing up. It's interesting to think of hard questions.. one that comes to mind is Did God create the world in 7 24 hour days? I've never thought or cared about that before. I care more about relational questions.
I thought I would throw out there, life is becoming manageable. Thanks for your prayers. They were answered! And today, I was challenged to again surrender my life and goals and everything to God through prayer this morning. I also desire to read my Bible more. I am in awe of the truth and revelation in the Bible. God is good!
I wonder sometimes how beneficial it is to ponder my past. Like is it worth walking back through. Sometimes there are great benefits. Like the other day, I vividly remembered my grandparents house on Franklin in Ames. I remember the comfort I found in being around my grandparents. I felt a sense of the love from my grandma through things like her itching my back, cooking pizza with me, walking over to the park, among other things. I just had a firm security there. Jumping on the trampoline, going to the track behind the house, riding in my barbie car, i think we even had a garden at some point, I felt loved by the room i had, i remember many bathes in the tub gram doing my hair under the faucet, being scared of the boogie man downstairs, watching tv next to my grandpa.. knowing he would always take care of me, toby, spending the night sleeping between gram and grandpa, helping gram do things like making the bed, the cracks in the driveway, riding my tricycle that had a dump box, the swingset, the big tree, playing hide and seek, but primarily.. I remember being SAFE there.. i was still insecure and scared, but more secure than anywhere else. Man, God blessed me with my grandparents. I think they might get to come out this weekend and I am super pumped. I miss them alot brings tears thinking about it. What a huge blessing. A gift.
I hope as I work through more bitterness that I will be able to recall memories like this of my mom and dad. The blessings they gave me growing up. It hurts sometimes to think about how much I wanted to grow up and be like my mom. I love her. I loved doing laundry with her, seeing her take such good care of our house. And dear old dad, I be just like him. I got to talk to him this morning, it always brightens my day. He has come so far over the years. To think, today the first person I want to ask advice from is MY DAD. I love him. He rocks my face off. He is growing so much. I hope to marry a guy like him someday. He helps run a business, he leads, he comes out of his past and plows through walls. He's walked out of a divorce and today holds his head high. Oh I love him.
Maybe I have found some worth in thinking about my past.
Another thing, I am the President.. i repeat PRESIDENT of a club. That means I am in charge.. I haven't realized that yet. Pray that I would take iniative in leading the club.
The final thing I have been pondering is friendships... I like have been visualizing a pieces of a puzzles. the different friendships are different puzzle pieces. I love my friends. I love that they're there when i need them. I don't like learning to trust people, but God is doing a work here in Marion with me trusting. It's a beautiful thing. I have some tight friends here, and hopefully I will be meeting some people to team up with me in my mission. :)
Life is good. God is good. I am blessed. The End.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Desire to blog
I am going to commit to blogging tomorrow night. I have some stuff, I want to throw out there. I am sleepy currently, and I have a test tomorrow. BUT I am going to blog tomorrow night. :)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Today
It's almost 2pm January 20, 2008. This means that it has been two hours since we received with hopeful joy Barak Obama as the next President. I am excited to see what he chooses to focus on and do as the new Chief of our country. Everyone knows that I am an America Lover. Tears come to my eyes when I hear patriotic songs. I dream of what could happen in America.. and play my part in Marion, Indiana. I'm pumped that African Americans can see what Obama has done and have that give them the umph to overcome anything they think is between them and their dreams. Yeah, I was sad to see Bush hear his last Hail to the Chief song.. but excited to see Obama take his new place. Btw, his girls are SUPER cute! ... I wait expectantly for what's to come!
On another note.. I am beat up like to the core. I have been tired for what seems like weeks straight.. its only been 3 weeks but it seems like forever. I am working too often and my classes are a lot harder. Today.. I got my first D on a quiz. Man, that sucks. I mean it wasn't surprising, but yeah me and biology don't get along so well... add to that me and no time.. and waaalaaa I get a poor grade. I keep contemplating putting in my two weeks notice since I feel like it isn't going to get better, but I so love the 10 clients I am working with. Like I think I would have to go through the grieving process of not getting to see them if I quit which means I hang on. This week I am scheduled to work 33.5 hours on top of what I am doing in school. It's funny, I pray about God allowing me to get by with less sleep, and God doesn't agree with me. He tells me I need sleep, and then I try to go without and I have auras. Oh, life. I am enjoying my classes for the most part. I am also enjoying the start of my term as Social Work Club President. And when I sit back and think about it. I would keep myself busy even if I didn't work, but I'm not sure I'd be this busy.
My best friend gets to go to France in a little over a month, and I am having fun being her cheerleader. It's probably difficult being on the receiving end because I am confident that God will provide the monetary funds to get her to France even when it doesn't seem possible for her. (If you feel lead to give money to her, she's going with YWAM in March. :) )
"I have a dream..." I've been pondering MLK's life. I find him inspiring. I think his life and what he did was tight. I like that he is like Moses in that he got sick before he went up to give a speech. Pepto Bismal helped him out.. haha. I love how God uses people. I have a dream that I shared a while back that God has done some revisions on and given me a more solid picture. As he continues to open doors I'll share. right now, I am just working on getting involved with the Teen Pregnancy scene.
Yeah so some Prayer Requests:
-I would say NO when NO is needed.
-I would be able to quit my job if that is what I need to do.
-I would listen and follow waht God wants me to do even in the little things.. like a hug.
-My faith would be increased as God opens doors.
I love you all, and I thank you for following my life journey. LIfe is good in Marion. I'm just a little tired right now. :P
On another note.. I am beat up like to the core. I have been tired for what seems like weeks straight.. its only been 3 weeks but it seems like forever. I am working too often and my classes are a lot harder. Today.. I got my first D on a quiz. Man, that sucks. I mean it wasn't surprising, but yeah me and biology don't get along so well... add to that me and no time.. and waaalaaa I get a poor grade. I keep contemplating putting in my two weeks notice since I feel like it isn't going to get better, but I so love the 10 clients I am working with. Like I think I would have to go through the grieving process of not getting to see them if I quit which means I hang on. This week I am scheduled to work 33.5 hours on top of what I am doing in school. It's funny, I pray about God allowing me to get by with less sleep, and God doesn't agree with me. He tells me I need sleep, and then I try to go without and I have auras. Oh, life. I am enjoying my classes for the most part. I am also enjoying the start of my term as Social Work Club President. And when I sit back and think about it. I would keep myself busy even if I didn't work, but I'm not sure I'd be this busy.
My best friend gets to go to France in a little over a month, and I am having fun being her cheerleader. It's probably difficult being on the receiving end because I am confident that God will provide the monetary funds to get her to France even when it doesn't seem possible for her. (If you feel lead to give money to her, she's going with YWAM in March. :) )
"I have a dream..." I've been pondering MLK's life. I find him inspiring. I think his life and what he did was tight. I like that he is like Moses in that he got sick before he went up to give a speech. Pepto Bismal helped him out.. haha. I love how God uses people. I have a dream that I shared a while back that God has done some revisions on and given me a more solid picture. As he continues to open doors I'll share. right now, I am just working on getting involved with the Teen Pregnancy scene.
Yeah so some Prayer Requests:
-I would say NO when NO is needed.
-I would be able to quit my job if that is what I need to do.
-I would listen and follow waht God wants me to do even in the little things.. like a hug.
-My faith would be increased as God opens doors.
I love you all, and I thank you for following my life journey. LIfe is good in Marion. I'm just a little tired right now. :P
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