My new room

So I got a walk in closet all to myself... funny a pack rat with a lot of room to throw stuff in.. hopefully I don't overuse it.


These last two pictures are of two walls of my room. Yeah, God really got me all hooked up.

I made it through a night of sleeping through this room by myself "in big letters" BY THE GRACE OF GOD. Thanks for praying everybody. I'm a little nervous about these classes.. I think they may be tougher than the ones I was taking at Iowa State. The Old Testament syllabus looks pretty intense. I think I'm going to like the Philosophy course after looking over the books. *Nerd stamp* I'm pumped to meet some social work girls... see if any of them are crazy like me. I mean who would want *normal* people taking care of everyone's problems.... I think you have to be a little crazy. The class I haven't mentioned is........... music, and everyone knows with my music talent *cough, cough, cough...* it will be a piece of cake? Yeah, we'll see after the first week.
Please pray that I would believe truth that was a struggle yesterday. I was believing things like I am not smart enough to be here, I'm from the wrong social class, and such things that flood my head sometimes. Dad, Grandma, and Grandpa are coming to church this morning and then heading out. After that.... I'm on my "own" in Indiana. Here we go....

Late Nite Lessons

-Warsaw sounds a lot like Wabash when you are driving through it at 3am.
-Gram doesn't ever sleep well, but she says Grampa doesn't either.... so it's ok?
-Gram worries about Grampa's bloods all the time, and currently can't do anything about it.
-God is here, answers prayers.
-My dad will be here in 30 minutes.. unless they are going really fast in which case.. if they don't get pulled over, they could be here in 15 min. haha.
-My family cares a lot about me; although, i can only hope my dad has his temper when he gets here... I would have lost mine to if I had driven around the wrong town for 45 minutes looking for a holiday inn express..... oops.


Pray that we aren't all grouchy tomorrow, and that we can laugh about this later on. :)

"Gram, there was a time change if we sleep past 9am that's fine."
6am... like that is 5am in Iowa.. I am up for the first time, but TOO early, back to bed.
7am.. I blink my eyes at the clock.. roll back over. Gram would die if I woke her up at this point.
8:15... I am done sleeping like seriously. I don't have a lack of energy or anything. I'm up, ready to go.
Right now, I think I feel like a child. I want to see... really want to see. But I also am scared to touch anything because I don't want to mess up. In the back of my head, I secretly hope that against my nature I mess up some stuff that doesn't bring the world to an end and is QUITE funny. If that happens I'll be sure to share. I mean I guess I ordered my loft last night at 10pm which means unless they bring extras I might not have one right away.. which is fine.
Hey, peeps that read this frequently. My natural tendency is to be a doormat, it's like my way of meeting people and making friends. It works rather well, ummm.... but isn't too much fun for me. So if you wouldn't mind praying that I would speak my mind, let people meet ME instead of whatever design I think they would like, PEOPLE PLEASING at its worst. It's funny. I don't feel like doing that, but its like I am at this point of looking in to what could happen and what i would normally do. For instance, I think of a dresser to share. I couldn't care which drawers are mine, but if asked instead of saying I don't care I should say that I would prefer the bottom drawers because I would just silly stuff like that where I have an opinion, but I need to learn to use it. *Starts to dance, then sings* "I get to be an Adult woot woot, I get to be an adult." Wow, what a concept. Empower U thoughts---- I am going to hit a LOT of walls today, in other words, I am going to run into a lot of big fears of mine, and I will have to make a choice... old self, new self. And the funny thing is it's not selfish, pray that I believe that in a couple hours. It's really not because I would love to let others choose things and I can compromise. I live a life of compromising small stuff and big stuff (time)..... kinda like my dad. Dad and I are on the road to learning not to be a helper of ALL things, but OWNING what we help. God is good. Do you see that change. God is soooooo good. He is going to provide everything. I'm pumped. Nerves are here to, but I am excited!!! Gram, just woke up. I thought I would write till she woke up. Ha ha it might have been the typing that woke her up.. oops. So as I ended the last one. HERE WE GO....

transition...

I'm sitting here watching my brother eat crackers and peanut butter.. he tends to crack me up.. like all the time. It's weird, I really didn't know him to well before this summer... he's been living with my mom the last 4 years.. while i was living with our dad. It's been good this summer to get to know my mom and brother more. Makes me happy. So funny.. I sit here and type and my bro cracks me up again.. this time its about a toilet.. my mom is redecorating her house.. so there is currently a toilet in the garage. My bro claims that there is water in the toilet and mentioned how funny it would be if he went to the bathroom in it. This would be hilarious because my mom or Bret would eventually come across it when they went to move it back. But we are good kids so nothing like that would ever happen.. but its still a funny thought.
I'm one day out of heading to IWU. It's interesting because I am not nervous right now.. im totally content about going. God wants me there. I firmly believe that. Beyond that statement I don't have a clue what is going to come of Indiana. Well, besides a time change... waking up earlier. My classes could turn out to be really difficult, but I not thinking that...
It's been an interesting last few weeks... ending my job, seeing Chip for a last time, sending Bjo off... and then this week seeing friends for a last time for awhile. My family has also been having parties for me. They nicely provided me with some sweet gifts and money for gas.
A weird phenomenon that has been happening this week is a couple times I have like come to tears thinking of not seeing my grandpa for awhile. This was like a weird sensation since I hadn't gotten really upset about leaving or people leaving and such. So this might be a bit of a wall for me to get across. Although I know that i will miss a lot of people, its just going to come with time.. not seeing people... stuff like that.
I'm pretty pumped to meet my new roommates. I have 5 of them. I have conversed over facebook with my roommate, Ellen. I think everyone will be easy to get along with. I'm going to get to learn some humility through using other peoples stuff.... like a lack of control which will probably be good for me.
Hey, pray that I would get in the Word more. I really need to desire and thirst for that more.
Also, I think I am going to look into Harvest USA intern stuff. I prayed on it and I think it is good.... "future leader" If you wouldn't mind praying on whether that is good, hearingwise.. that'd be great!! Then just pray for peace amist transition. HERE WE GO!

Buzz

I just finished the beautiful story. It's been a treat to walk through. I spent half a day today reading it. Longing to see how it would end, probably shouldn't put what I want to since some of my friends are still getting through it. I ended it with strong feelings of love and trust... and I jumped on Facebook... odd haven't been doing that as much lately. I had a friend request.... "I think I am your roommate this fall." God blesses his children. Pray for my relationships this coming fall. Pray that I would grow and I would lead through His will. I want to see big things happen amiss the struggle that is sure to be there. God's good. He makes a heart fill with joy. Praise Jesus for alone time. WOW!