Oh goodness

Coming to the close of three days, I was expecting to be enlightened or something of the sort. What I didn't expect was for God to tell me to hug a random girl I was sitting next to. It's interesting the things I am willing to do, and the things that I go, Oh goodness, you have got to be joking. Well, this particular girl looked very nice and so my head thought she would flip out if I asked her if she wanted a hug. God affirmed that wouldn't happen. I told Him it would. He REaffirmed it wouldn't happen. Then the service ended and I walked my separate way, after listening to a message about willfully sinning. ERRRR.... so obviously since God gave me lots of opportunity to do this and I didn't I knew I would feel guilty. So I am walking back... and I am like "God, I am a failure." and God being the loving dad he is says, "No you're not. You're loved" Oh goodness, what a night. God is helping me through some stomach trouble. And I don't listen in the little stuff. God forgive me for that and still let me be a vessel of Your Spirit.
I thought I would let everyone know since I think people care about this sort of thing. Today during my ample amount of time to study, I had a firm feeling of missing my Body of Christ I am use to being around. I miss everybody. God is totally providing for me. He loves me SO much.
On another note, it's one of my house mates birthday tomorrow. This girl makes me happy in my heart! She's like optomisic all the time, loves to love on people... and its totally genuine, yeah, beautiful display of Christ. So if you wanted to lift of a pray that God would continue to bless her to be a blessing to others. Thanks~! Love you all!!!