An after thought

I think about the future and tend to get really confused. Then I get frustrated because confusion is not from God. It is from Satan. I wish I knew why I was being directed the way that I am. I yearned last year to hear from God, to see His power at work through me, to be a part of His Kingdom on Earth, but what have I gotten myself into. God speaks, I can hear, I now know how to test spirits, but its just so hard to hear God say go. I've always thought that God would say GO to this far away land and spread the gospel to people that I have called by name. Putting me in some place that is unsafe that I would solely have to depend on Him. It's possible that is in my future, but right now God says Go.. and this time He means a couple states away to a town the size of Ames to live on a legalistic campus and do ministry there. What will these people think of the higher gifts. Will they think I am crazy when I say God has given me the gift of healing? Will I have to fight to hear from God? No, He'll be right there with me the whole way. (I love when God speaks while I am thinking. Interrupting lies.) I titled my blog confusion made clear in God's time.. I should have ended it by saying, through my trust in Him. He is going to make this confusing time and any more that comes my way make sense in His time. Can I say I can't wait till that happens? :) Until them.. I feel like a child... who should only think of the right now.. because my Dad has control of the rest. He isn't going to let me stumble or walk in front of a truck going 40mph on the road in front of me. He is my Fortress, my Help in troubled times. My Rock, my redeemer, my healer, my Savior.... all truths about Him from His word. I like the fact that I am safe in Him. He is willing to put a hedge of protection around me, so that I can continue to walk in this world. Walk forward on His narrow path. I don't know exactly what is to come beyond: Indiana Wesleyan University next fall... unless God changes His mind and has something better for His dearly loved child. "I'm going to be ok." that is the general thrust of taht blog. But I just can't see the ok life yet. This might just be the life God wants for me to not see far into the future and always be ready to pick my self up and move where ever He leads. Confirmation from a friend that prayed about this was: Gen 12:1 and Matthew 10:37-39... Praise Jesus for answered prayer.. but oh goodness HOLD ON.