So walking on...

It's weird to be like.. well I don't really know what I am going to be doing next year. It's been a rough bit of time.. realizing that I am going to have to say goodbye to friends that I thought I was going to be around for like 2 more years at least. I wonder if there will be another solid hello.. or will it be passing glances.. whispers in the quick sand of time that I get to see these people again. I want to say no... I want to be able to stay here.. but God has bigger ideas. I read through the whole website a little bit ago. It seems like the University is so expensive because of all kinds of new remodeling. I don't care so much about how things look, like I know I will like the really nice furniture and housing, but I also know that it is not necessary. I wonder about the Social Work program. I am sure it will get me ready for Graduate School... I wonder about the people out there.... are they lukewarm.. or are they running hard after God. Am I going to be able to engage in worship and such. but then i think stop.... you have been thinking about going to Turkey for over a year now... and the people in Turkey aren't going to hand you a worship service like C-stone.. so maybe I am going to learn how to better feed myself or something. Really its fun to think that everything is going to be alright. I was naughty this past weekend and I went and bought a mac computer... I am going to give my computer that I had been using to my brother who is starting college next fall. It was going to be fun being at the same college as him.. but nevermind that. I think I am getting sick... yuck.. you know the whole nose is running and won't stop plus the ear ache... and body aches.. but it'll be over soon enough. I don't know what is in store for me. I think I need to learn how to be flexible. I struggle with not knowing all the information involved in anything I do. But God still says Trust Me. and by all means He is worth trusting. So I sit another day wondering what this life is coming to, but walking forward becuase I know that everything will in fact be ok. It's great to have encouragement around me. I need it. Dependence on God is needed too........ and that is an eternal need.. so random thoughts splurt. The end.